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010 - 04 February 1998
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Feb. 4th, 2008 @ 10:20 pm
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7 days
Maybe I should get a flat of my own. |
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009 - 2 Jan 1998
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Jan. 2nd, 2008 @ 12:13 am
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[Private to the DA and Draco]
I'm not Harry. There. I've said it. I'm not as smart as Hermione, as resourceful as Ron, or as gifted as Harry. I don't know what to do sometimes - correction - most of the time. I'm struggling in the dark, doing my damnedest to prepare you for a war I think is going to end up on our doorstep, when I've only been in one battle myself.
My entire fucking family is fragmented and broken, and I sit around listening to you lot whine because the Carrows scare you. George is missing an ear, Bill has been irrepairably marred by a werewolf, Charlie is off in Romania attempting to prevent the dragons from joining Lord Voldemort's side, Percy is trapped in the Ministry, and Ron... Ron is NOT at home with Spattergroit - he's currently out gallavanting with Harry and Hermione on some secret fucking mission to kill the Dark Lord. And nothing WE can do can help him do that.
What CAN we do? Protect ourselves, so that when Harry DOES get his chance to kill Him, he won't be distracted with having to protect us.
Luna... will have to take care of herself. We can't get her. We don't know where she's at, and even if we did... do you think WE could take down EVERY Death Eater ALIVE? Because until you think we can, we've got no HOPE of helping her.
I'm sorry I'm not a better leader.
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[Private to Draco]
I think I've lost my bleeding mind. I can't take it anymore. Facing the Dark Lord's legilimency seems easier than putting up with that lot. I'm ready to defect, turn myself over. If THIS is the best my side has to offer, we're going to lose.
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008 - 31 Dec 1997
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Dec. 31st, 2007 @ 12:15 pm
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Merlin, I finally got a quiet moment to sit down and catch up with you lot. With Ron still sick, and Charlie in Romania, and Bill with Fleur, and Percy working all the time, the Burrow seemed awfully empty... which is probably why Fred and George have spent so much time wreaking havoc. Mum and I have had a horrible time cleaning up after some of their pranks and experiments. Things are... interesting. How was everyone's Christmas?
[Private to the DA]
Sorry I didn't get much chance to talk to you all before... and I've been so busy...
I think we may be putting that training to use much sooner than any of us thought. Luna was taken on the train. Neville and I tried to stop them, but Luna told us to stop resisting and things would be all right. She'd be back soon. She never came back... and I haven't heard anything. Have any of you?
I'm... I'm worried, I hate to say. Maybe she's fine and with her father at home, but it seems unlike Luna to contact one of us.
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[Private to Draco]
I received your gift. Thank you... a lot. I... didn't get you anything, and I'm sorry. Not that I could afford anything you would appreciate anyway. I wish I'd had a bit of warning, though; Mum about had a heart attack when I opened a dagger. She thought someone was threatening me, and I told her someone wasn't threatening me, and she demanded to know who would send me such a thing. It took quite a bit of maneuvering, and it probably couldn't have been accomplished if Fred and George hadn't "accidentally" set off one of their pranks in the house.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you...
and...
ask if you'd seen or heard anything from Luna. I know, odd question, right? But... a couple of people I think I recognised from the battle at the Department of Mysteries showed up on the train and took her off.
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007 - 03 Nov 1997
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Nov. 3rd, 2007 @ 11:01 pm
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Banned from Hogsmeade.
My life's pants. |
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006 - 19 Oct 1997
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Oct. 19th, 2007 @ 05:41 pm
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HOGSMEADE WEEKEND IS FINALLY HERE!!!
Sorry. I should probably behave with more decorum than that, considering my position in the student body, but it's just exciting, and with no quidditch it's really the only break we have to look forward to. I just wanted to let everyone in Gryffindor who can't go into Hogsmeade know that I'll be taking orders for supplies. I can only pick up what you pay for up front - I don't have the money to extend credit. Sorry! Still, let me know what you need and I'll be happy to pick it up for you.
Also, a little reminder that any all of my brothers' products are against the school rules and anyone caught with them will be subject to detentions with Filch. [Hexed Private to Students] Of course, this doesn't mean that you can't buy them, it just means you can't get caught with them. In fact, they're offering a discount to Hogwarts students.... [/Private]
[Private]
So, meeting with Malfoy was... bizarre. It's strange to think that there's someone else out there who knows. Not just me. Not just Snape. Yeah, I'm including him. Why? Because, as much as he likes to pretend he wants to do this, I can just... tell he doesn't. It's a feeling I have. Maybe I'm wrong and I'm living in a fantasy world, but logically...
If he really hated Harry he'd have killed him. He had plenty of opportunity. If he wanted to kill Dumbledore he would have... he worked with the man for 20 years. If he really hated Malfoy he could have killed him in the Battle of the Tower and called it an accident. Logically, if he was as bad a person as they all try to make him out to be... he'd have done worse stuff. He wouldn't have saved Harry all those times. He wouldn't have stepped between Harry, Ron, Hermione and a fully grown werewolf. He wouldn't have rushed off to the Shack knowing that Professor Lupin hadn't taken his potion. Yeah, I don't know what's going on completely, but I do know that Snape isn't as bad as he's being made out to be.
And neither is Malfoy. He's just broken and scared and alone. That's the worst part... feeling alone.
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005 - BACKDATED 22 Sept 1997
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Sep. 29th, 2007 @ 10:19 pm
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[Private to DA Members]
We didn't get the sword. Snape caught us. He gave us detention. With Hagrid. In the Forbidden Forest. Anyway, a special thanks to all of you who helped. I just wanted to let you know that even though we didn't succeed... we survived.
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Detention? He honestly expects me to believe that he crucio'd me last time (when I honestly remember that he was enoying himself up to a certain point) and gave me detention this time? Something is not right here. And it just convinces me even more than Snape is not who he's claiming to be.
Which leads me to that anonymous note which told me to watch Malfoy. Why? What's the point? Does he know something?
Maybe he knows something about Snape...
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004 - 19 Sept 1997
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Sep. 19th, 2007 @ 07:51 pm
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[Private]
I feel bad for Hannah, but... considering what happened to me... I'm just not as eager to tell people about it. After all, it's my own stupidity for throwing myself at him.
I just can't figure out who left that note. Who has been near my things to tell me to watch Malfoy? It's sort of.... creepy. But, maybe it's good advice. Watch Malfoy... just so long as I don't become a paranoid wreck like Harry did last year when HE was watching Malfoy.
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[Private to DA]
I... had a bizarre thought yesterday. The sword of Gryffindor is in the hands of a slimy snake. There's something... just... not right about that. That was Dumbledore's sword. NOT Snape's. It should belong to people who respect Dumbledore's memory.
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003 - 2 Sept 1997
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Sep. 2nd, 2007 @ 11:19 am
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No quidditch?! What? This is going to absolutely suck! I think I might miss quidditch more than I'll dislike any of the other changes he's going to make... or making... or what have you.
At least I don't have a broom to worry about being "disposed" of.
[Private]
I had a crazy thought... but...
What if it's for security reasons? I mean... hundreds of students out on the quidditch pitch all at one time? It makes it FAR too easy for people to attack. But that would mean he was trying to protect us... which... doesn't... sound... all... too... Snape-like... except that he HAS protected Harry several times.
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I wonder, though, about Muggle Studies being compulsory. I've NEVER taken the class. How in the heck am I going to be able to follow NEWT level material on a subject I've never had? Or am I going to be stuck in a class with third years? Not that I'll mind... it might be interesting. Save for that VILE text I've started looking through already.
That's nothing new about curfew, though. I mean, we've always had a curfew. I'm just not sure what he means about holding Heads of Houses responsible. Will they be punished, too? And that whole conspiring bit... I wonder what's considered conspiring. Is me wondering about it considered conspiring? If so... whoops. Or does it have to be a bit more directed than that. I'm also curious what exactly these severe repercussions will be. Whatever they are... I'm sure Filch will be happy about them. |
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002 - 24 Aug 1997
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Aug. 24th, 2007 @ 11:38 pm
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[Private]
It's like... I can feel his power growing. I try to ignore it... I really do... but this darkness is settling over the whole of Britain. I can sense it. He's not close, though. I'm not sure he's near, even as his followers consolidate his power, bring more people into the folds.
I'm so worried about Hermione and Ron and Harry. I wish I knew where they were and what they were doing. I wish I knew that they were comfortable, full, and dry. I wish...
I wish I had gone with them.
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001 - August 20, 1997
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Aug. 20th, 2007 @ 03:52 pm
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It's been nine days since I turned 16, and I feel no different at all.
Speaking of big brothers - it's boring here. Lonely, even. Bill's off with Fleur on the honeymoon, and I'd sort of gotten used to them being around. Charlie's back with Carlos in Romania, studying dragons. Percy... well, that git didn't even bother to show up for the wedding, why would he come talk to his younger sister? Ron's got a bad case of spattergroit - so bad, I doubt he's going back to school. That leaves Fred and George, who are busy with the store and with recovery and who have gotten a bit more serious about... everything with all the news that the Prophet is printing. It's just me and Mum, fighting the good fight against the garden gnomes and entertaining ourselves with books. I've already starting studying. How sad is that?
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Harry and I broke it off for good. It's probably a good thing - it just wouldn't work. I think of him as another big brother, and it's not cool to date your brother... at all. He just refuses to see Snape as anything but a murderer. It makes no sense to me. Why would Snape kill Dumbledore? He's had ample opportunity in the past and never has. There is something much more complicated going on here, and I've only got enough information to say with certainty that Snape is not what he appears. I don't know how, and I don't know why, but if I ever get the chance I intend to find out.
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